Week 9- gaining weight

So things are not looking good.
It looks like the following:-

Tues 19th :-

Weds 20th (after England match the night before) :-

TODAY

Not ideal is it. Hmm... think I'm going to need to get strict.
I'm supposed to be losing not gaining.

Not amused- GAIN after PV

Its me again.

Today is official weigh in day.

I'm 124.6lbs.
Not amused.

I was 123.8lb on Weds and on Thurs and today I've somehow managed to put on a pound. Nice.

Positives:-

Its a 0.4lb loss compared to my 125lb of last Friday
A loss is a loss
I cheated in Belgium and STILL lost

Negatives:-

NOT AMUSED!!!


So..
I've decided to make an executive decision and move my 'official weigh-in' to tomorrow.
I knew that after a PV day there's always going to be issues. So I will have to alternate my official weigh in between Fridays & Saturdays so to obtain the most satisfactory results.
Although this seems like I'm massaging the numbers a little I'm doing this for good reasons.

Now that my weigh in is tomorrow:-

I shall be on my BEST behaviour today
I will drink lots of water
I won't get the negative attitude and think "I may aswell eat pizza and cake as I'm not losing weight anyway"
And so on and so forth.

So tune in tomorrow and lets hope for a more chirpy and sane Kimberley.

Stagnation

Stagnant.

Not really. Well yes, but not in a negative or unhappy way just in a meh I can't really be bothered way.
But I KNOW I MUST continue. Regardless of whether the old brain fluid is flowing in the right direction or not.

Anyone else ever feel like this??

Its been around 6 and a half weeks now (minus the holiday and a few days of Jubilee celebrations) and I'm cruising...
I've lost 12.8lbs and only have around 5-6lbs to go.
I'm one of those people who NEVER sees things through to the end. I was lucky to have actually obtained my degree and graduated last summer- I was ready to ditch it in the second year. And on those rare occasions I DO finish something its such an awesome elation.

BUT

The finish line is a bit fluid I feel. For example the whole situation I had with deciding on a TW. The fact that the weight fluctuates so dramatically- ie I was 124.6 a couple of days ago and today I'm 125.8 :-/ - when will I know that I've reached 119lb for good?!
I guess that now my BMI is "normal weight" the pressure is off. Now that I am able to squeeeeeeeeeze into my 10's (the stretchy ones) the pressures off.
 I don't want to "give up" but my current attitude tells me that stopping now wouldn't be giving up because I'm not technically "overweight" anymore. God I sound like an idiot.

Anway- would be good to hear the experiences of others...




On a more positive note I just had a wonderful dinner. This will (hopefully) set me straight for the evening...

Very simple and yummy- white onion, king prawns, smaller prawns, a dollop of garlic and herb *light* philly (30g a day tolerated) and some milk to make it saucey.

CRAVINGS!!!

So its exactly a week since I got back from holiday. A literal holiday in the sun and a sort of holiday from Dukan really.
And I WANT BREAD!!!
I want cake, I want pizza and curry WITH rice and omg I want REAL FOOD!!!

STAY AWAY FROM THE CARBS!!!

Ok- I'm exaggerating. I know that it wouldn't even taste as good as I'm making out. Then there would be the guilt and the punishment. Ugh.

But when I become peckish- it would be great to grab a slice of toast. Or a banana?!!!!

Its ok. Things are going well.
Hopefully I'll have a nice smaller number on the scale tomorrow and this will improve things dramatically!!!

(I was 127lbs Sunday, 128lbs yesterday and 127.6lbs today. When I get to below my Sunday weight- we're back on the move!!! :-) )

On the plus...
I did have a lovely dinner. Rainbow trout with some cajun spices, onion, garlic and a splash of lemon. Yum.
Think I'm going to try and do something with a dollop of light philly and sweetener and hopefully will be satisfied! :-)

Hope all you other Dukans out there are doing goooood!!!!

Confession o'clock

I'm baackkkk!!!

Ok- so not sure if I really made it clear that I went off on my hols for a week. One of the MAJOR reasons I started Dukanising my life was to lose some lb-age quickly for my hols.
My goal was to weigh 129lbs by my final weigh in on 14/5/12 and I actually weighed 128lbs which was FAB and a hugeee loss of 9.4lbs in 3 weeks.

So...I got back yesterday. While away I went through various combinations of not giving a damn about what I ate, eating consciously, and somewhere in between where I chose slices of cake over slices of bread instead of having both. (Sure there's some logic in there somewhere.)

Anyway...so todays post-holiday weigh in reveals a GAIN of 3.2lbs

But I'm totally ok with this (would NOT have been ok with a +5lb for example)

So...the plan is now to embark on ATTACK II- whereby I do a 3-4 day attack to get down to my pre-holiday weight and to kick start my body a la Dukan.

I'm expecting headaches and difficulties but hopefully I'll find my way. (Soo tempted to write 'weigh' then- ha!)

Confession(s):-

2 Maxibons

2 Scoops of ice-cream

3 pain au chocolats

4 slices of cake

2 pastries

3 hot chocolates

MANY rolls and slices of toast

LOADS of fruit- watermelon, peaches, oranges, kiwis, pears, bananas, prunes

Paella (RICE)

Pasta (PASTA)

Chips (POTATO)

Cocktails (JUICE & Alcohol)

2 sharing bags of crisps (!!!)

4 small bottles of Strongbow (or 5?)

etc etc etc

Anyway- holiday over. Time for attack :-)

PV WEIGHT GAIN?!!?

Groannn!!!

So I was just getting my head around the idea that after a PV day my weight will stay the same.
Now a whole new world of information to digest has slamdunked into my life.

WEIGHT GAIN!?!

So you're telling me I can't eat crisps, sweets, bread, FRUIT!, pizza, pasta, alcohol, cheese, ice-cream, biscuits, ANYTHING and I STILL put on weight?! Nice.

Ok, ok- a tad dramatic. I put on 0.2lbs today. This is the first time- on my 14th day- that the scales have gone up! And I'm not pleased.

To be fair I lost 0.6lbs yest after a PP day. But still!!!
Fingers crossed for tomorrow...

STS

Groan.
STS means Stayed the Same in the dieting world.
Thought I should make a point of noting it down as this is the first time- on my 10th day that the numbers on the scale did not go down.

The dreaded 132.0

I'm annoyed.

Maybe not annoyed- thats sort of an angry feeling isn't it. I'm more disappointed really.

Points of consideration:-

• The numbers didn't go up- good thing!
• It was a vegetable day yesterday- and they retain water
• I ate THREE GODDAMN PARSNIPS YESTERDAY!!! (I knew they'd come back to haunt me).
• I now can't update my little weight loss ticker :-(
• I still have lost 5.4lbs all together
• I'm going to put even more pressure on myself to lose more tomorrow
• I need to up my game
• I haven't had a bowel movement in 24 hours (sorry- but every little helps)

Its going to be a long day...

ATTACK- Day 2

Just a quickie as its very late and I was up very early again.
(This will probably be the longest yet, now I've said that).

Last night-

Ate tuna with vinegar. Was ok. In bed exhausted by 10pm (maybe because I was up at 6am- not used to it). Woke up to use the toilet (No. 1) twice in the night. TWICE!!! (Been peeing like a good'un!)

Weigh in this morning:-

Thats a LOSS of 1.8lbs!!!

Food diary:-

Cup of tea
Boiled egg & cottage cheese
Activia mandarin yoghurt
Crab sticks x4 (deja vu, much?!)
Tin of sardines
Dukan Galette
Activia vanilla yoghurt
Cup of tea
Quorn Smoky Ham slices x3
Quorn Chicken slices x2
Plate of king prawns with lemons (at a restaurant- embarrassing!!!)
Pint of diet coke x2  (At the restaurant for over 2 hours)
Cottage cheese (after I've written this, even though its 23:19)

Other:-

45 minute walk to Tesco and back at lunch
45 minute walk to restaurant and back in evening
LOTS OF WATER
Headache this morn- took 2 paracetamol.
Got round to reading phase 2 of the diet and feeling pretty apprehensive.


Fingers crossed for another positive result in the morn- and a longer entry is a must.

ATTACK- Day 1

My podgy-footed self on the scale at 6am. Day 1.

For those (myself) who just want a food diary, I'll start with that.

Cup of tea

Hard boiled egg and cottage cheese

Mandarin yoghurt (Activia- 0% fat)

Redbush tea

4x Crab sticks (Youngs- 79p at Tesco)

Tin of sardines

Vanilla yoghurt (Activia- 0% fat)

More crabsticks (total of 10 today)

Cottage cheese - straight out the tub!

Small glass of Pepsi Max (1 calorie; no fat)

Weird king prawn, yoghurt concoction (wouldn't recommend- see below for picture- YUK)

Dukan galette

Emotional/ Wellness-ness

Woke up positive. Got on scale- well ready for the mission.

Breakfast- interesting affair. Too much of the same texture. Not disappointed- dealing with it.

Trip to Tesco before work for yoghurts- smell of fresh, warm bread wafting throughout the store. Aware of the smell. Thinking about it as though I should be bothered, but not actually.

Early at work 9am- starving. Mandarin yoghurt. Sicky feeling.

Light-headed-ness. Not unbearable but verging on uncomfortable.

Start stuffing crabsticks- stink out the office. Paranoia. Rather be munching on biscuits.

BANGING HEADACHE- drink more water, drink more water.

Tin of sardines- tasty but HATE the way the look- all veins and scales and guts and shudder. Don't think- just eat.

Drive home- starving. Stuff more crabsticks. Stinking out the car- difficult to unwrap whilst driving. Groan!

Get in- shove some mouthfuls of cottage cheese in my face. Enjoyable. Mushy thickness akin to a fatty naughty treat. Not unhappy, not dizzy, not headachey. Just meh.

SMALL GLASS OF PEPSI MAX- joy, elation. Very happy moment. "This diets great." Lets get started on dinner shall we?

Take dinner out the oven- greeted with a mushy mess. Yoghurt separated from liquid. Lumpy and gross looking. Pick out the prawns- they're tasty- the texture of the yoghurt- not so nice. Gag-zilla.

Not hungry- but remember the oats. Conjure up Dukan's galette. Not hungry- must eat oats. Very filling and heavy. Content. Not happy, nor sad, just meh.

The scales better show good things tomorrow!!!

And the rest of it...

My God this has been a strange day foodwise! The thing is with me- I love food. Tasty food, and usually thats bad. What I've eaten today wasn't necessarily baddd or gross as such, its just that I'm stubborn and make things difficult for myself. Because I have to eat it, I don't want to eat it.

I want to want what I eat.

But at the moment I want to lose weight more, so yea. Shushh!!!

Some marriages of ingredients aren't ideal. The egg and cottage cheese was too much of the same thing.  Mush up some egg- its like cottage cheese and vice verca (ewww- imagine balling up some cottage cheese into an egg shape!)

The sardines really grossed me out. For those of you who eat tinned sardines, you'll know exactly what I mean. I had to push the black mushy innards to the edge of the tin where the top was still attached so created a shadow in the corner where I couldn't see so good. I worked quickly and efficiently and ate as much as I could. WAYYY too squeamish for this shizz!

The yoghurts are YUM! The vanilla one- god its to die for. I'm happy to eat those. Think I'll spread those out between the not so favourable dishes.

Dinner- now I have no idea what the hell happened there.

Looks like puke in a bowl doesn't it. As I said before, picked the prawns out and they were fine. Can't be bothered to give this "dish" more time than necessary.

The Dukan Galette, however- lets talk about that.

Interesting concept. Smells porridgey- obvs- its oats.

Looks like a pancake. Goes sort of hard and firm when cooked. Like you can pick it by one edge- its not floppy like a tortilla, more rigid like toast.

I found it quite eggy. I think I will put half of one in next time.

I ate it with cinammon, quark and sweetener. Because I was full and it was filling I didn't really enjoy it. Not as much as I may have done this morning when I was hungry.

Having said that I do feel hungry now. Not hungry. I can't explain it. Its as though I should eat but don't really want to. Not sure whether my stomach is trying to gurgle or trying do digest all this protein.

Just don't know.

Anyway, galette, yes..

Was thinking that it might make good "soldiers" to have with dippy egg.

It was quite large really.

You could cut it in half and have a smoked salmon and cream cheese sandwich. Oooh yes- that would be lovely. 

If I eat again tonight I have decided it will be a tin of tuna with pepper and maybe vinegar (?)

I've drank loads of water.

I walked for 20 mins (not in one go, but hmm...I wonder if that will make a difference actually..)

The scale BEST show positive results tomorrow. OR ELSE!!!

Oh yes- just quickly, back to emotions- keep spontaneously welling up- over adverts, Eastenders, just anything really. That could just be me to be honest...or the lack of fatty treats!!! Sighhh!!